a fuck-up convo.
after i reach home and bathe






jonathan.geow(04.03)
is really sad to know you hate me so much. im so sorry.


me(04.04)
who ask you make me so pekcek. look at your msn


jonathan.geow(04.09)
i really really learn this lesson. really. all i want is just a chance to make things better. its so painful to face de present.


me(04.13)
no. you deserve it




(i fucking dont understand. why he ask me not to say break when im angry cause i dont meant it. but he could fuckinghell do it. and say he regret. and this is not de fucking first time.)




jonathan.geow(04.15)
i have never never seen or expected that you will hate me to this extend. i really throw my hands up. i lost. i lost so badly that i dont have face anymore.


jonathan.geow(04.18)
i dont know how to cope with this really. i will do anything to bring back de old days.


me(04.22)
nothing you can do. really. just dont make me to go to de extend that i will completely stop contacting you. cause i will. dont make me to go that far. i dont hate you. just find you deserve somethings that will hit you so hard and make you stop being fickle minded.


jonathan.geow(04.24)
you really want punish me so badly. i dont even have anyne to talk to right now.




(sounds so fucking kelian)




jonathan.geow(04.29)
this past few weeks i reach my limt. i dont think i can ever get this depress or sad.


me(04.29)
call your friends lorh. then.? you got think of me for de first few days.? you never.


jonathan.geow(04.35)
de truth is i did. but i wanted to cool down first. thats why i took four days. i know you dont believe me. i know you think that i havent suffer enough. but i really reach that line. honestly, i dont know how to bear this. i know you think i didnt care about you de first few days. but i really did. you should know by reading de msgs i send you in de second morning. please i need to see you. see you as de joan i love so much. de joan that cares everything.


me(04.43)
i dont remember. all i remember is de messy days. de first week is dramatic. yes i dont understand why you still can have de cheek to tell me we been thru so much. we quarrel over de slightest change on de earth. we broke off and patch every other few days. and everytime i wanted to say break and i really do control. did you.? you didnt thats why you should learn a hardcore lesson. you reach your limit.? you reach mine too. i suffer.? so you are de only one suffering.? it took you four days. and what about me.? when you broke promises and took drugs, all i can do is cry and still forgive you. you.? all you know is to get angry for days, being fickle minded and tell me you regret. joan that care so much. you always say i dont care what. i care what.? after i left then you notice i care.?


jonathan.geow(04.49)
i always know you care. but i feels like you dont now. joan really im dying to have one last chance. dying to change things now. i really knwo its my wronf and really got a hardcore punishment alr. is it not enough for you.? just onces more. thats all i ask from you . onces more trust me and let me turn things around. i will give you more then i can give. please.


me(04.51)
give me what.? no you don't have to force yourself to chance. things will never be de same as before.


jonathan.geow(05.00)
i have alr change. please i ahve never beg someone so badly before. for de sake of love. for de of de relationship. for de sake of our families. for de sake of how far we have gone. trust me once more and let me take this all de way. please joan please. really one last. please last. i am very very scared. i dont want to go back to de life i have before you please.


me(08.57)
you talking shyt to me.? for de sake of love. for de sake of de relationship. for de sake of our families. for de sake of how far we have gone.?? why dont you think of all this before you say break.?


jonathan.geow(10.43)
really i say sorry i wrong. you so easy to lose temper. rokay i get it since you so angry. pekcek proud whatever. then end it here ba. next time got chance then talk again.


me(10.59)
i proud what thing.? priud for what.? of course easy lose temper larh. tell you how many times, not now, dont want. which line you listen.? none.


jonathan.geow(11.01)
ok


jonathan.geow(11.10)
lol i dont even know what i msg you just now early morning. really bullshyt. k larh. forget it ah. i tried and i dont find worth it alr.


(wtf. acting or what.?)


me(14.57)
okay then you dont wait


jonathan.geow(16.17)
okay do you want lo.


me(16.33)
okay.bye




pardon me.
but to jonathan,
i cant help but fucking keep swearing.