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jonathan geow(1929):
i know saying this on msg is not de best way,
but have you given up on me alr.?


me(1929):
given up on you as in.? give this relationship up or.?


jonathan geow (1931):
yar


me(1943):
not really. just very 'mengzhang' or rather felt suffocated when i tot of you making esther and me quarrel, when you cant stick to one decision just to decide to break anot, took you five days and in de end i made de decision, when i think because of a guy msg you broke off. i could forgive you when you took drugs twice, why cant you. its not like i got an affair outside. just dont know how to talk to you face to face. yaar maybe my dad is right. maybe is just because of anger. but you too made your decision out of anger right.? my parents want me to speak to you. but i really dont know whatelse i could say. you're de one who made so much things up and in de end
tell me you regret. jon dont you realise you always regret.? regret taking drugs, regret making such hush decision, and perhaps regret being with me.? others all i can forget, but de only thing that pushing and pressuriessing me, is when you keep say break an hour later no, two hours later break, an hour later say no. this i not de first time right.? you know, i know. dont because of your family & my family and ask me be back together again. when you can really really make up a final decision and stop being so fickle minded then we decide again.


jonathan geow(2001):
i admit not that i made de decision cos i was angry.after a few days i duno how to explain, i think i was still angry. i think and angry so long cos there is so many meaning beside just why you msg other guy. it kept me thinking what did i do wrong that made you like this. i know it my wrong that made you like this. i know its my wrong to say break out of anger. i know it happen a few times alr. im sorry. i was very angry. i want you back because i want you only part if family. i really didnt plan or expect you and esther quarrel. i dont get angry but honestly esther was neither siding you nor me. i have tot about this everyday and i know that i want you.


me(2009):
see.? being fickle minded again.? jon i really dont know. if you made me and esther quarrel was intentionally or unintentionally,de fact is we alr quarrelled, we cannot undone what is done. esther and me alr didnt spoke to each other since that day. when i see her, it reminds me of you. really. okay you said you are angry. angry cause you cannot find another reason why i msg other guys.? if i really wanna hide from you, i would. and i make sure you wouldnt even know it. i will make sure i delete all de msges before meeting you, grap hold of my phone. but i didnt. i didnt wanna hide. i left de msg there left my phone on de bed, left you de freedom to browse thru my msges and calls. but in de end.? you angry and thats it. what more can i say. is it because you got no confident in me or is it because you got no confident in yourself.?


jonathan geow (2014):

i know you all quarrel alr. im sorry. i know you nv hide i know. but i really dunno why you said those thins. to be honest, yes i have no confident. but i always have no confident, i think you know.


me(2036):

no i dont know. cause i tot you always know how much you stand in my heart. i said what.? i said i very pekcek when you come.? cause i was sleeping im just want conti sleep. morning de 5th floor doing renovation, i woke and just fall back sleep you came. yes i said those things another guy outside what.


jonathan geow(2043):

de fact that you say that some1 you know is interested in you and you only know for few weeks is a big impact on me. i mean it has lots of meaning behind it. i was very angry because of that. it was sort of my fault too. anyways everything we said now we have alr said before. will you come back?


me(2048):

because i got nothing to hide, thats why i told you. thats why i told you this guy bla bla bla. now you like it you ask me go back. later you dont like it call and scold me again to say break.?


jonathan geow(2056):

why you like getting angry.? i mean you know it is wrong alr im sure you wont do it agian right. what im trying to say is that broke up because of this and we were so happy before. we still can be like time, & maybe even better if we make a few small change if we love each other like we used too. im sure of it. dont get angry alright.? i didnt msg you to cause any conflict.


me(2111):
do what again.? msg guys.? i will. they msg me of cos i will reply. no matter who. last time you dont like ben, because of you, i didnt contact him. but not now. i will contact him. im not angry. just that. im happy with de life now. okay i know im slut okay cause you called me once. not that i cant live w/o guys, just that all my friends mostly are guys. and my guy friends, you know some of them too. like lester, you knew he likes me all along, why didnt you stop me from contacting him, but want stop me contacting others.? eh de whole world knows i got bf at that time okay.


jonathan geow(2120):
msg guys is not a problem. but that guy msg is different. you know what i mean right.? since you are happy with your life now. then its a good thing. sorry to have disturbed you.


me(2125):
different guy then cannot msg.? de only thing i want to tell you now. jon listen to me,if we go back together, can you accept de fact that we will never be de same again.? and de fact you call me slut.? i dont know how to face a guy, kiss a guy and look him in de eye and at de same time remember he once called me slut.


jonathan geow(2133):
you know i didnt mean de slut. i know you know. you know what kind of person i am. you know you didnt break with me cause i called you a slut. he is different because he was trying to get you in a way. you might not have seen it maybe you dont see it now too. but from a guy point of view, i know his intention. believe it anot. i guess your answer is you dont want to get back together.?


me(2141):
you doesnt meant it but doesnt mean i dont mind. no matter how much we both change, things will go back to square one. it doesnt matter if i give up my friends or my phone for you. things had change and it alr changed. once you said break, everything change. even we get back together, things are different. i can never hug you like last time again. i hold de drinks you carried to my mum's workplace, i knew i miss you. while im typing this msg, i knew i love you. but cant cant cant. we cant be de same again.


joanthan geow(2150):
you know we can. im sure you know we can. we can be like before. its you who is telling yourself that we cant. its just that you have to decide what you want.


me(2157):
no we cant. really. once a couple broke off, and goes back together everything is different. plus jon, both of us fought badly. till my parents and aunt knew it. till my parents knew you took drugs, you sure.? you sure they can trust you again.?


jonathan geow(2206):
it might change. but i dont believe that we cannot go. i dont know if they will trust me anot. but when i talk to you father 2days back. he ask me to stop taking drugs and i told him i quit alr. but de most shocking thing is that your dad ask me to call you, meet up and talk things out nicely. honestly i was shock that he know i took drugs and still ask me call you. anyway its not about them. de decision is really all left to your making.


me(2216):
very funny right.? and you even tell them i very fierce dont dare call me right.? jon at this moment, i want time for myself, to be alone, to be with everyone around me, my family, my friends. maybe or maybe not i will go back to you next time. but this is a next time thingy. i just want now. no one bother. would you allow.?


jonathan geow(2230):
you father was saying baout your temper then i said i didnt dare call. not they like me. honestly speaking, is what you really want.?


me(2234):
i alr told you what i want. for de time being, i just want to be single. i want this time for myself and people around me. maybe or maybe not we will be together. its a next time thing. but not now. i didnt say my parents dont like you. they like you. i can tell. we could still remain de same. as friends.


jonathan geow(2238):
if thats what you want then i understand. sorry to disturb you. i just dont know how to carry one like that. sorry


me(2243):
carry on what.? i think we cant. cant be together. i look at esther, and you can never understand how much i blame you.


jonathan geow(2252):
that time i tot you really dont want me cause of esther quarrel. i told myself you are angry thats why you said things so hurtful. it was just giving myself exuses. even now i can tell you still angry. at least abit. blaming me cause its all my fault. but i understand now that you like de life you having now. and so think i have to respect your decision.


me(2300):
no im not angry. i just dont understand why make me and my sister quarrel.? why dont you make me and jane quarrel.? make me and jane, i dont mind. why esther.? and still tell me unintentionally. okay intentionally or not. i dont care alr. quarrel means quarrel. you said hurtful words when we broke off, i also said hurtful words. but i dont understand why we break till so jialat.? why break till i think of you, i see you will remind me of esther.?


jonathan geow(2305):
i didnt plan or anything to make you quarrel. really really.although you dont care alr. its true. at least believe me this time. this time where i really need you to believe me. last time i dont like you quarrelw ith gary, dont like you quarrel with jane or any family members even your granparents. i still feel de same way now. why would i make you and esther quarrel.? you dont want me cause you now live a happier life i really can understand. but if its because you think i made you and esther quarrel, i dont know i have to do something about it right.?


me(2314):
what do you think you still can do. yes correct. i dont want be together with you cause of esther. so what.? so what i agree with my dad that its very difficult to find both parents accept both parties.? quarrel means quarrel alr. no need talk to esther again. it only make things worse. this happen because of you and your fickle minded. fickle minded about breaking up, fickle minded about de dog. jon there nothing nothing you could do. really. i dont know in de future if we could still be together, but i know things dont happen one day. things dont happen only about that jason msg me. things start when my phone kept ringing, things started when you broke two big promises, things started when you dont trust me. it accumulated.


jonathan geow(2327):
is it fair you dont want me cause of esther quarrel. i mean its really not a good reason to break after we been thru so so much. i know we can be like before. if we want, i choose to believe what you said last time. somethings about no matter how many times we quarrel under this hot sun, you will stay with me. but break cause of something unintentionally.? something that is misunderstood.?


me(2342):
yes misunderstood. yes i unreasonable because of esther i dont want be together with you. you dare to say we been thru so much. we been thru so much why you still want break because of jealousy.?


jonathan geow(2358):
dont angry pls. i didnt mean to offend you. i was really very angry thats why i said that. really, i admit thats was out of anger. i said sorry countless times ever since i cool down.


jonathan geow(0002):
can you give me 1 more chance.? just 1 more. when you really feel it does or cannot work out then, when you go, i will keep quiet. its stupid of me to let go someone who accept me for who i am.


me(0005):
no i cool down. i know you said ample times of sorry. but doesnt mean we didnt fought badly before. its time to learn. learn not to say things out of anger. you always say things out of anger. you always say things out of anger to your mum, your family. now me.? phone low batt. reach home msg you.


jonathan geow(0008):
what i done to my family i have never done it again since i met you


me(0124):
so after i left.? after i left you took drugs.? jon i really dont know what to say. i alr cool down. you're de one that say break in de first place. when you said break, you off your phone didnt give me a chance to explain, at night when you call, you were drunk shout and scolded me. say some words thats not suppose to be said. not im still angry or what. im totally cool now. just want to tell you, i dont want be back together again. maybe in de future, maybe when you change, maybe when you can accept things are different, we could. but not now. now i just feel that you keep pressurries-ing me. you quit drugs, but you didnt quit de temptation of taking. i dont want be back together, partly because of esther but most important, we fought very badly. and im sure cannot forget what each other said. tell me, how to look into you eye and not thinking that you once call me slut. tell me how could you look into my eye and tell me i didnt break your heart. yes we both quarrel, there's nothing nice come out of our mouth. but talk is cheap. you could take drugs twice when you say you wouldnt, and you could do everything once again even you promised you wouldnt. i trust you. i trust you didnt make esther and me quarrel intentionally. maybe you just tell her and didnt expect us to quarrel, or just tell her so she could talk me round. but nothing helps. jona you should know. i belongs to me. now i only want to listen to myself.


jonathan geow(0132):
i can change for you once. i can change again. i can look you in de eye now and say nothing ever happen. i can force myself to forget this. anyways i can tell you really dont want to back now. but if you ever want me again, let me know.? i will wait.


me(0136):
im sorry


jonathan geow(0139):
i odnt blame you. its okay. when you want me back, let me know.? if you like some other person then go ahead. but let me know so as to not keep me waiting.?


me(0141):
okay


jonathan geow(0143):
thanks alot. smile alright.! i go try sleep tml got yoga. haha. nights.


me(0204):
okay nights